some things (i've learned)

I wanted a party

End of the summer

Something exciting

Something i'd remember

I wanted a memory

A movie scene ending

Cop cars in the driveway

But i keep forgetting

Some things end quiet

Some things end soft

I don't need to scream it to prove i said it at all

I wanted a ball gown

A bouquet of roses

Somebody who loves me

And wants me to know it

I wanted excessive

Non stop affection

So there isn't a moment

Of doubting connection

But some things need breathers

And some people need space

But i thought when you asked for alone time

It meant i was something you hate

But i can't control everything

Everything changes

And it doesn't matter

How i feel about it

And that makes me sadder

I wish i had impact

On all my surroundings

Like if god knew i'd cry

Then he'd change plans around me

But some things are broken

That don't need my help

If i'm gonna repair anything

Then it sure as hell should be myself